Hello guys. This is Blondie,
I would first like to take this opportunity and thank the medical community on finally taking mental illness seriously. Patients such as myself have suffered for years without positive results and unanswered questions.
Please permit me to give you a brief history of my humble beginnings. I was adopted at the tender age of fifteen months. Before my adoption I was physical abused before and after my birth. My biological mother suffered from alcoholism. She drank during her pregnancy which meant I was born with a neurological disease. To make matters worse at the tender age of nine months I was left alone in an infested house surrounded with rats which chewed four out of ten of my toes. These scars have stayed with me until this day. I was an abused infant that was neglected and under nutritious. By the grace of God my biological father brought me to his sister who with her loving husband cared for me until their deaths. I will always love them. These mental and physical scars lead me to look for love in all the wrong places. Drove me to unhealthy relationships and drug abuse.
The first five years of my recovery I surrendered myself to a higher power which is God. I learned to follow the twelve step programs of alcoholism and narcotics anonymous. During those five years, I tried desperately to follow those steps. Somewhere in my search to understand these steps I wrote “The Other Side of DC.” It was not my initial intention to write this book, but only to tell my story and to find help. Twenty-three years later I have learned to live life on life’s terms without the aids of harmful drugs that was design to destroy me. I had to fight back to gain the respect from family members who once thought they had lose me forever. I would also like to make one fact clear. Recovery is not easy. Not using harmful drugs or alcohol doesn’t mean all your problems will disappear. It only means that you will have a clear head to be able to solve these problems, and it will allow you not to repeat the same mistakes over and over again.
I always felt guilty because after several years of being clean I never sponsored another suffering addict. Simply because I didn’t feel worthy or equipped to help others. Hell I felt I could barely help myself. So I guess this is my way of giving back to a community that needs so much help. My mission is to research answers for individuals who do not know where to turn or have no one to talk too. This blog is also a place where anyone can just tell their story to those who are willing to listen and possibly help if they can. I don’t have all the answers, but I intent to asked as many questions as I can and hope someone can find us some solutions.
I thought I would start with exploring all the different forms of addictions, drugs, food, sex, gambling and many we are not aware of. Since my journey started with drugs let’s start there. Stay tuned and let’s do some serious research on how we came to this place and how we can climb out to a healthy environment for ourselves.
In these trouble times of COVID-19 we are not allowed to give physical hugs, so let’s shake things up a little and give mental hugs to those who need our help. Call someone, text someone who may need words of encouragement and give them a mental hug. May God bless you all.